Okay so I know its late....well for me it is, but I wanted to get a quick update in. I'm really trying to post on this as much as possible.

As far as today it was pretty boring. I had my normal 4 classes which are boring and mostly still review.

After all my classes were over I went to something our campus offers for free. They offer these quick 15 minute fitness classes for free. So my room mate, her friend, and I all went to core complete which is an ab workout. Okay so I do ab workouts by myself, I'll be good. Well boy was I wrong, this lady was crazy. My abs were burning by the end of the class and I couldn't even do it all. Some of the moves were to advanced for me. After that I went to the gym and did a quick 30 minute work out. I wasn't worried when I came to school about gaining weight cause there is a ton of walking but I am feeling it soo I'm going to have to step up my workouts cause my goal was to lose the freshman 15.

I watched GHOST WHISPERER again. I love that show. I wish it was on the instant on Netflix because I got that again.

Well I am getting really tired and I am planning on getting up early so I will give you more of the 411 with me tomorrow.

Love always,

Jess

Weekend review

Okay so I think that we can come to the conclusion that I am a bad blogger. When I have nothing to say I have time to blog and when I have a ton of time to blog I'm not in the mood or I don't have time.

So we all know that college is a time for experimenting and I can finally say that I'm working towards it. Here on campus there is a thing called Thirsty Thursday. Now I assume you know what that is but for those of you that don't, thursday night is the big party night on campus. A lot of drinking going on. Don't freak out yet, remember I'm taking baby steps. A few of us went into another's room and we played waterfall. This is a drinking game with cards and it is really fun but of coarse I played with Mt. Dew. Its a good thing too cause otherwise I would have been toasted real fast. It was a lot of fun and I'm glad I went to it when I was invited.

Weekend's on campus are not that exciting. Most of the people who attend Whitewater live within 30 miles of it so they go home every weekend which leaves campus really empty, quiet, and with nothing to do.

This weekend I found some things to do though. On friday I worked out with some friends and then we walked around campus which brought us to a park. We found some fun swings there and had a lot of fun. Then later I ordered some toppers and had a movie night with Shelby, we watched 27 dresses and then the series finale of Golden Girls just happened to be on when we turned the movie off. On Saturday I did nothing really, I helped my neighbors get ready for there girls night but then retreated back to my room to watch hallmark movies the rest of the night. Of coarse I had homework I could be working on but I stayed clear of that.

Today though I woke up at 10:51 and I was sooo happy because on the weekends I usually have to force myself to sleep in. It also helped that I was enjoying my dream a little too :) Then I took a shower and got ready for the day. Then again instead of doing my homework I watched Ever After, which is such a good movie. Then I went to see EASY A with some girls and it was actually really good. But of coarse since it is sunday night and I have 4 classes tomorrow I had to seclude myself to the basement to finish all my homework. I wrote my first english paper and it was suppose to be between 500-600 words and it turned out to be exactly 600 words. Now lets hope I did a good job. I also had to read a short story and take a quiz on it. I alway find the quiz on the reading pretty easy but he throws some trick questions in there which requires research and prior knowledge and it bugs me. So far i have gotten two 80s and two 90s on these quizzes. But i don't really find these fair because the quiz is to make sure you read and obviously I read but I don't get full credit because I concluded something different than the professor. Oh well there's not much I can do about that. I did some other homework and then I watched another halmark movie while keeping in touch with my neighbors boy problems and for her, her problems are that right now 4 guys like her. It must be sooo tough!!

Speaking of guys that is one thing I can hardly wait for. Its been 18 years and I have yet to have a guy like me. This makes me feel pathetic, but to be honest there has only been one real guy that I have ever really liked and that has passed. So that is what my goal is this semester, meet a guy! Not necessarily start dating him but hang out with him and at least be friends. I need guys in my life, I don't do well with girls 24/7 very well and for those of you that know me they can testify that I need my alone time.

Another thing I need to work on is reading the bible and getting closer to God again. To be honest I haven't opened up my Bible since my youth group ended in May. Thats something I can tell is missing in my life and I know if I start doing that again some things will start to work themselves out.

I GET TO GO HOME THIS WEEKEND!!! It will be my first weekend home since I left for college and I'm excited. It will get me a chance to get some things I forgot, sleep in my own full sized bed again, and do what I miss the most which is drive. I miss having the freedom to drive. It drives me nuts when I am at a place for a long amount of time and have no way of getting anywhere. Being on campus without a car makes me feel stranded. My van is my security blanket and I enjoy having it.

Well I think I have written enough for one night but I will try to write more often that way my blogs can be more like updates instead of novels!!

Love

Jess

New Experiences

Okay so its been a while since I have written a blog post. To be honest I completely forgot I had this account but my friends blog reminded me.

I moved in to college 18 days ago and I got to say I'm still adjusting. Its college you know the time of your life to reinvent yourself and do you things you never thought you would do and make the mistakes that will shape your future.

Things I've done that have been out of my comfort zone:

1) Went to an Inter-varsity meeting alone

-I knew no one there and no one really opened up to me either and tried to talk to me but I tried to talk to people as much as my body and voice would allow. I mean I could only take so much of the "leaders coming up to me talking to me cause they could tell i knew no one.

2)Talked to my neighbors and befriended them.....they are actually pretty cool but i don't want to smother them so I limit my time with them, they have other friends.

3)Ate dinner with people I don't really know......room mates friends but without room mate

Trying things new:

1) Put vinegar on my sub (BAD IDEA)

2) Tried a Mesquite chicken sub but they didn't put hot BBQ sauce on it like they were suppose to so I had to settle for some other sauce and I didn't like it

3) Ordered toppers and found out that I liked it so I will probably get it every weekend that I'm here

Room mate:

My room mates name is Alyssa and she was a random, meaning that I didn't know her before move in day. She seems pretty cool but we have some differences and similarities. We both agree that we should voice our opinions nicely. She is very considerate but maybe sometimes a little to considerate. We both like romantic comedies but can't watch them to often cause they make us jealous. I can't really think of the other ones but there are more. Its funny cause we discussed the question "What genre of music can you not stand".....her answer, COUNTRY...my answer, SCREAMO can you guess what our favorite types are :) Its okay we both laughed and we wear head phones when on our computers so we don't have to hear each others music. We get a long but I don't see us becoming besties but its not really awkward between us anymore.

So I never posted this yesterday but I meant to so this is from yesterday and I don't think i really finished my thoughts but hey its an update....I'll probably post another one today so enjoy!!

Knocked Out

Yesterday I had all four of my wisdom teeth extracted. In order for me to do this I had them put me to sleep during because I cry at the sight of a needle. Let me tell you this was a weird experience. It all happened so fast. They took me into the room and within two minutes they had the laughing gas on me. I felt myself slightly slipping. It felt as if my whole body was going numb but to make sure I started to more my toes and fingers and I even talked and I could do all three. I heard the oral surgeon say this is going to feel a little tight and can you make a fist and then I was gone. I felt like i was time traveling. Then I felt like when I was coming back I felt like everything was moving backwards even the medical staff and they were in on it, it seemed. It all felt like 5 seconds but it was about an hour in all. Of course my mom is freaking out over me but I keep telling her I'm fine. I was totally able to come to the party last night but my mother wouldn't let me. Yet another thing to add to my list of excitements for moving out and college. So far having them taken out isn't as bad as I've heard. The main thing that sucks is that I want to eat real food. Like Penn Station sounds amazing and pizza does and everything that I would have open my mouth and chew to eat sounds good but that will take a few days!!
I don't know whats in store today but I hope I can have some sort of fun today.

I just realized that I only have one full week left of school then two half weeks full of studying and Exams!!!!

So I realized today that even though I cant wait till I'm officially done with High School, I will miss it. I mean how many times in your life do you get the chance to live like you do in High School. You live with your parents and they support you (well at least most of the time), there are like 1600 kids that you have the opportunity to be friends with or get to know, get to know some teachers and actually get to come to like some of them (they are all there to help you even though at some times it doesn't seem like they are). I'm not explaining it as well as I am in my head but to me thats okay.
Friday I am having all four of my wisdom teeth removed and I'm kind of nervous. I'm getting knocked out because I don't think I could handle being awake for that but I hate the thought of needles and I would have to have an IV and that makes me cringe. I also have this party I want to go to that night and I've heard from some people that they hung out with friends that night and from others that they didn't feel like doing anything. Honestly I'm torn. I want to hang out with my friends because its one of my last chances to hang out with all my friends before I leave for the summer and College next year but I also like the thought of just lying in bed sleeping or watching movies all weekend. I guess I won't be able to make a decision until I get out on Friday.
I still have some work to do tonight so I better stop writing and get to it....but honestly I'll probably post this then open my Calc book and close it right back up and save it for last minute like I've been doing lately.
One last thing that I'm hoping to do for the rest of this school year is make the best of it. I only have 3 more weeks to do what most kids do in High School and I don't want to say later in life that I didn't make the most of my high school experience when I had the chance. I should live it up and enjoy myself instead of wallow in self pity :)

LIVE

YESTURDAY is a memory....a memory is something meant to look back on and remember but it's the past so don't live you life based on it.....TOMORROW is a future memory which is something to look forward to but yet again not something to live you life based on...TODAY is the memory you are currently creating and the only thing you have control over and as far as you know the last day you'll have so live your life like it is the Last Today you'll ever have and make the best of all the opportunities you receive!!!!

I was hanging out with a bunch of my friends tonight and they kept talking about how excited they are for college but I kept thinking about how much more I am to Graduate High School than go to college. I mean yes i am excited to go to college and finally have some Independence but its a scary thought to me. Its the next step to being the adult and I truly don't know if I'm ready for that. Life scares me a bit and I know that's a bad thing but if the thought about your future and its uncertainty doesn't scare you even a bit, you're lying to yourself.
Tomorrow I have to give Calculus presentation on a subject I barely know so I hope that goes well but we'll see. We were all talking tonight about if we got paid to go back to school would we do it. Most of us wouldn't even for 10,000 a month they wouldn't do it. Honestly I don't know if I could do it all over again. I'm realizing that I spent the last four years going to school (going from class to class), then coming home to watch tv, do homework then go to bed. Most people add a life in their school week too but at least this year I've done nothing after school. I used to have something every night to do but I cleared my schedule this year so I can do more things with my friends but I haven't really done much.
I feel like I got jipped for my senior year. It defiantly has not been my favorite year of my life so far.
The days are counting done. Only 18 more school days till I have no more in High School. I super excited because Senioritus has been really bad and its been affecting my motivation for not only school but everything. Take this weekend for instance. I had a to do list to get done on Saturday so I can do whatever I want on Sunday but I ended up getting like nothing gone on Saturday, not because of me but mostly my sister, but I had to do it all today and then still hang out which I truly needed.
We all went over Dorothy and Jackies and hung out. We played bunco, went to Tazinos, played bingo, fell on the floor a couple of times, tried the tree swing, had a bon fire, and had some deep conversations. I finally got the chance to explain why being a twin isn't always as fun as it sounds and I think most of my friends understood for once. We ended up staying like an hour and a half later than I said we should but I felt like I needed the break and it was worth it.
Well I skipped a Student council meeting that had Mr. Marty coming to stay over at my girls night out and my mother found out and we were arguing about it. I said that I knew that I skipped it but that I needed to and that I would talk to Ms. Novak about it tomorrow to find out what I missed but she still got all mad. It was a choice and I made it so I don't know what she has to do with it.
Writing this I just realized that when i took a shower tonight I shaved one leg but skipped the other. Oh well I guess it will be sweats tomorrow.
I should probably get some sleep but it felt good to get this out. I'll keep updating hopefully sooner and more often than I've been.